.Tuesday@5/15/2012 09:30:00 pm.
ALOT OF THINGS HAS HAPPENED FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS ..
AND IM GLAD DAT EVERYTHING'S OVER !
AND IVE FOUND SOMEONE WHO NEVER GAVE UP ON ME ..
IM GLAD FOR THAT ..
AND IM LUCKY UP TILL NOW , HE NEVER EVER JUDGE ME !
I APPRECIATE EVERY SINGLE THING ABOUT YOU BABY !
I HOPE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN YOU WILL NEVER GIVE UP AND STAY
BY MY SIDE AS I NEED YOU ALOT SAYANG ..
IM SCARED THAT YOU LEAVE ME AND FORGET ABOUT ME !
BABY , I MAY LOSE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY FRIENDS BUT I DONT WANT TO
LOSE YOU BABYBUSYUK !
REMEMBER THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN , I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU & CARE FOR YOU !
TO THE WORLD YOU ARE JUST ONE PERSON BUT TO ONE PERSON YOU ARE THE WORLD !
SAYANG DIER !
RINDU DIER !
MUACKSZXX !
HALIKAHS SIGNING OUT ~
.Friday@12/31/2010 10:24:00 pm.
Okay goodbye 2010 & hello 2011 ..
2010 was not a great year for me.
too many unhappy things happen.
Too many unexpected things happen.
People come & go.
& most importantly i noe whats the meaning of treasuring the one you love.
hmm .. as fer kentut , i hope your 2011 will be a good year fer you.
Hmm as fer me , i will concentrate on my job n noting else.
Kk i update soon.
Bye !
.Saturday@12/18/2010 10:05:00 pm.
Life sucks to the max.
Banyak bende yang berlaku all this while.
People come & go as they like.
As fer my beloved ex , may you rest in peace.
ive read all your letters .. & seriously imtouched.
I miss you !
Busy with werk.
I really have noone to turn to now.
Im all alone.
I truly understands n noe sape kawan & bukan.
takpela ey..
2011 will be the start of new chapter.
Nomore giving face.
Gonna stand upfor my right.
Enuff fer now.
I mma continue my werk back.
Take care!
As fer you , dun stress yourself okay?
Sorry if i stalk you...
Stay strong friend.
Hopefully you will be okay.
Pape text me.
Take care ! :)
TREASURE THE ONE YOU LOVE & DONT TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED !
Labels: i still need you
.Friday@12/03/2010 01:48:00 am.
!~Something unexpected happen !~
Today when im at work ,i received a call from a friend.
he called up to say that my beloved ex kene langgar.
i was shocked sia.
Supposingly i should be meeting him somewhere there.
I really dont want anything to happen to him.
WAKE UP bodoh !
Kau kate kau nk jage aku ..
Please la bangun ...
We have alot of plans remember ?
Aku risau sangat pasal till now , hes stil belom bangun.
We plan kan nk gi phuket end of december? please i really want you to wake up.
Kau kate kau nak teman aku jumpe hamka n nuai ..
Pleassseee ...
Please wake up... me & family will olways be here for you.
Kk laa .. i wanna sleep .. gt to wake up early n go hospital.
Take care !
Loveyou
Missyou
Muacks ..
Labels: wakeupandillbebyurside
.@12/03/2010 01:44:00 am.
!~Its been a while !~
Kk my blog da macam dead & gone gitu.
So now lets update..
Its been quite awhile i last blogged.
My previous post was deleted because of some reasons.
True i got to agree with this someone that if i wanna make a report , i shudnt be
posting that kind of post.
I should just report & see what happens next.
To my beloved ex , takmu do what you wanna do to him.
Trust me his not worth it.
Dont be such a lowdown person just like him.
His nick really suits him well.
So why bother with him.
What goes around shall comes around.
Satu hari nanti ape dia buat , he will get the same desert .
NuaiBabe i guess what you say are all true.
Shall move on n not to think of him again.
I will remember our convo that day.
& maybe i really should give myself a chance to be loved by someone who really loves me.
As for you babe , i wish you all the best dengan kekasih hatimu.
Hamka , ex aku kate thanks pasal ajar aku simple malay bout that putriputra ting.
He will call you soon.
Discuss bout benda tu.
Maybe he will meet you outside your skola then lepak my werkplace.
Btw im enrolling aready so make sure ikot aku.
Soo yah ..
Btw thanks to Fad , your kate2 really make me wakeup sia.
Shall see you around soon at Bkt batok or stadium.
Hahaaha ..
As for Syahmi & the rest , thanks hor fer temaning me that time.
Im loving my family , friends & ex now ... hahaha ..
Aku ,NuaiBabe , Hamka & ex gileku will have our double date soon.
Thanks korang !
As fer you (pade yang terase ) , Grow up Dude !
Thanks BOI fer the ride back home tadi.
Take care !
PEOPLE TALK BEHIND YOUR BACK BECAUSE THEY CANT GO AHEAD OF YOU!
Labels: iloveyoustill
.@11/19/2010 01:50:00 am.
~!Officially over !~
called . talked . ended .
at ferst i adapted not to contact you anymore but you came again.
& now you walked out once again.
i noe you have your own life to lead now.
I dun blame you.
All i can say is gudluck in everything you do friend.
Why am i feeling this way pun im not sure .
Maybe after that sunday , you shouldnt have come back again.
Suke sangat ke kau keluar masok dalam hidup orang ?
To you maybe its okay.
Tapi remember its not all about you & your feelings.
Lain orang pun ader hati & perasaan.
Kenaper mesty kau dtg balik when you will be walking out on me again ?
What have i done to you ?
you have her & yah you shouldnt be telling me all that tadi cause thats none of my farking business.
as a friend,yes im happy for you .
You delibrately told me everything just to make me sakit hati ? what will you get ?
One thing im not wronged bout a guy is they fallin love easily ..
You once told me you dun fall inlove easily but You PROVED yourself wrong !
you have changed as your ex says but you sure ?
Aku telah membuang mase terhegeh2 dengan kau .
i wont irritate you anymore dun worry .
& if you tink you dun want me to cntct your frens ,say so cause i'll do it.
Kawan kau pe bukan kawan aku kan ?
Nanty ader orang mengate plak ...
thanks uh you do have great frens ..
Mmg tadi kau kate stop blogging bout you but please its my blog my say ! & im not doing anything wrong cause i did not mention YOUR NAME.
Why sia must you leave den returned den leave again ?
You shudnt returned at ferst .
Now your life is far way better then me ..
You have whatever you want .
soo treasure it la kan ..
Friendship , Relationship & kinship is very important.
They are not some kind of rubbish that you can throw it around.
bukan bila perlu kau carik bila takperlu kau campak jauh2 ..
You are the guy i thought lain dari yang aku kenal tapi ternyata ntahlahh ..
But whatever it is i dun regret knowing you but i regret falling in love with a guy who doesnt care & treasure me at all.
Maybe what i heard about you are true & maybe not.
But i always will say that i believe you no matter what .
im upset with myself pasal aku ni bodoh sangat sampai diperbodoh-bodohkan ?
Kk enuff ..i shall not waste anymore tears on you.
I wish you all the best FRIEND !
And as for you Zai , congrats ... Finally la kan ..
Sorry bout the call tadi .. no worries i wont bother you any longer kay ?
Thanks alot ...
As for me , im focusing on my work & nothing more .
Ape org kate betol its better to be with someone who loves you then someone you love .
Agree sangat2 ..
ENuff laa ...
Take care all ...
Please hatred go away .
I dun want history repeats itself ..
Org tak bersalah aku tak seharusnya benci hanya kerana seorang LELAKI .
we will wait & see .
Sorry but this is a part of me that NOONE tahu ..
Watch . learned . Understand.
NEVER will i hate you but i will always remember what you did KAWAN !
What goes around comes around...
& im a firm believer of karma..
Take care ! see you soon ... (:
iLaSigningOut~
Labels: we shall see whats next
.Thursday@11/18/2010 02:10:00 am.
Geraammm !!
I dunnoe how should i start.
My head hurts.
Alot of things happen.
It started with i dunno why my fren 'Z' macam lain.
When i asked ,after a few days den he say busy n pp8 low.
But i have this feeling somethings not right somewhere.
We talked , da tak macam dulu...
I noe i shudnt think much cause afterall im just a fren.
Tapi if theres anything i prefer you telling me.
Even if you choose not to be my fren anymore , i wont stop you .
All this while i do treasure you as my fren.
If i need someone to talk to , i definitely will find you.
But when suddenly things turn up this way , i was curious .
Why ? nie je yang kyp playing in my head.
And when we talked otp tadi , tibe2 korang talk about trap.
Whats the trap all about ?
No point hiding ..
Terus terang PLeaassseee !
and as fer you kentut , why sia ? knape you said dhat ?
Did i kacau ur life ? did i ganggu idup you n her?
I rase the answer is NO!
Ey please laa .. i dun nid all this fro many of you !
aku da cukup masalah .
Kentut or shud i say my fren 'M' i did wish you all the best & gud luck with her.
Imnot hoping anything from you !
Walaupun susah , i will still kip trying !
I really hope either one of you will tell me whats going on.
Thanks alot !
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUACKS
ilaSigningOut~
Labels: keep lying n u will be found out
.@11/18/2010 01:26:00 am.
~!should i be happy or what ? !~
Kaykay let me start my story lagi ..
Hmm my life skg busy gyler dengan kerja ape lagi ..
Takkan bf la plak kan ? maner ade bf oi ..
I wanted to meet him badly but it seem that he is very happy with his life now.
With org2 tersayang.
what i can say is that even though i say i'll wait but i noe that its kinda impossible.
Ntah laa ... theres this saying yang berbunyi begini .. Mencintai seseorang tidak semestinya kita harus memilikinya !
I noe its kinda weird cos i olways say that i got over him aready but deep down haish ntah laa...
Maybe one day someday i will manage to do dat .
Hmm as fer you my ex , im truly sorry for not wanting to get back.
I forgiven you a long tyme ago aready.
Getting back together ?? nah i dun tink soo ...
Fact is you never change n you will never will ..
Enuff with your msges n calls ..
Ill still be here fer you as a fren nutink more .
As fer zai , hmm its kinda weird but i kip asking why ?
Hmmm seriously i miss talking to you budak busuk !
Cam lain gtu .. ila ader uat salah dgn zai ke ?
Hmm kk not in the mood la seyy seriously .
Chatted with kentut that day but he was busy with his someone.
Hmm thought of meeting you but its okay laa ..
Just take care laa eyy kentut ! hope happy with what you have now.
Treasure those people !
And one more thing .. the convo antara kentut n zai kip repeating
in my head .. krg tknk bilang takpe .. its okay !
kk la thats all ... hmm nytes !
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUACKS
iLaSigningOut
Labels: i miss you
.Sunday@11/14/2010 02:52:00 am.
~!! Kinda happy oi!!~
Had fun that day with ex boifey ...
Hope you enjoyed the birthday surprise.
Sorry if its just a simple one.
& im sorry if i told you that imwaiting for someone.
its impossible for us to get back together cause till now im still waiting fer him.
Hope you understand.
As for you , thanks fer making my day .
Sumpah kau kasi aku happy nari !
As for zaiaiaiaiaiaia , miss talking to you la budak busuk !
Hmmm ...kk la penat oi !!
& Yah to my friends & ex boifey & hym ...this is what i wanna say !
Im a girl ...
i have feelings...
i overreact ...
i underestimate....
i over tink everything....
i look too deep into everything's meaning...
i dream big.....
my expectations are high...
i can tell im being lied to but sometimes i wish i didnt...
yes i get jealous,and im always scared i'll lose you....
that's why when i ask how you are i mean it .
when i ask how was your day , i genuinely want to know...
& when i say ilove you , im not LYING !
But one thing for sure ...
No relationship is perfect,ever...there are always some ways you have to bend
to compromise , to give something up in order to gain something greater.
The love we have for each other is bigger than these small diffrences.
And thats the key .
Its like a pie chart , and the love in a relationship has to
be the biggest piece.
LOVE CAN MAKE UP FOR A LOT !!
And i should go sleep now!
Sorry fer PAITAO-ing ...overslept!
And you made me smile alot today (14.11.10)
Thanks fer that call...
Hehehe ... sayang kau la !
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUACKS
iLaSigningOut~
Labels: i love the way you are
.Wednesday@11/10/2010 02:15:00 am.
Heyhey ferstly i wanna wish my ex boifey a Happy Birthday !
Seriously was shocked to see you after a long time.
Btw thanks for the supper aytes ?
Yeahyeah just ferget the past aytes ?
I dun hold any grudges towards you.
Friends right ?
Kk we will celebrate your birthday today kay ?
& yah mama, akak & ayeen wishes you happy birthday too.
Ayeen says present later2.
Hmm yah its like finally la kan.
Thanks for comforting me .
He says : You still look the same .
I replied : yeahyeah obviously ! you look diffrent.
He says : yah ramai yang cakap gitu.
I replied: tapi perangai da ubah lom ?
He says : Dah . i regretted & changed . im sorry ila Cyntz bout dulu.
I replied : its Okay ... & i smiled.
Tears fell & i get a hug .
Haiyahh ..
Kla enuff bout him.
Now pasal mr MaluMalu !
Hmm nari tarq tok lame pasal dhea ngantok.
He wanna be a sweet person sampai nk ambik i alek keje la seyy .
Hahaha but you kan lazy ! pelik !!
Kay la edited peektures coming soon !
Hahhaha ! standby kay ?
About hym ????
Ntah laa aku da tak tahu ape nk cakap.
I should just give up maybe ?
Yeah ! dats what i will do !
Penat oi !
& yah you sungguh takperlu kay ?i dun wanna b a lamp post !
Gaaah !
Last long & yah take care !!
YEAH IM SMILING
But you are not the reason anymore !
?? Loveyou ??
??Miss you ??
??muacks ??
??
iLaSigningOut ~
.Tuesday@11/09/2010 02:50:00 am.
~! Loving the people around me!~
Hmmm ... let me start with my life as usual.
Busy with werk.
Busy with friends.
But eventhough im busy with my stuff , he is still in my mind.
why is it soo hard to ferget him?
kk la enuff bout me & lyfe !
Nownow about Zaiaiaiaiaiaiai aka Zai ChokiChoki aka budak busuk !
Hmmm guess what?
Someone nyanyi lagu bidadari hatiku & memang khilafku la seyy !
Its like finally la seyy...
Jom gi karaoke !
Who would haf thot Mr. MaluMalu (Zai) nyanyi sey !
Okla tuu at least i did smile.
Thanks you.
& im not burung hantu aready horrr... i tried my best to sleep same timing you sleep kay.
hahaa.. i tawu i sweet ! takyah bilang !
k looking forward to talk to you.
kk cukup laa pasal zaiaiaiaiai.. tunggu gmbrmu diedit kay? haha ..
As for you , i miss you !
Dont forget to study hard okay?
Goodluck in life ..
take care ..
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUACKS
iLaSigningOut~
.Saturday@11/06/2010 02:26:00 am.
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The truth is i still care and always will.
Im not the type of girl to let people walk out of my life and pretend that they dont matter anymore.
I may not like that person anymore or talk to him but i still care.
Im always going to think back to my life and say wondered what happened to so and so.
I hope he is alright.
I will actually mean it that thats is the type of person i am.
Once you're in my HEART, youre there FOREVER!
I kinda miss those tymes when i ''teman'' you go mandi & all but nah imokay now.
But most importantly imissyou !
Hmmm thanks manymany ohh budakbusuk aka zaiChokiChoki !
Nice having you as a friend.
Hahahaha ... Hmmm btw i did had a grreeeeaaaaat day today.
Pagi je ader org manage to put a smile to my face.
Thanks la sey KONYOL!
Hmm kk enuff ! take care !
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUACKS
iLaSigningOut~
Labels: Falling inlove with you is the second best thing ive done, finding you is ferst
.Thursday@11/04/2010 12:31:00 am.
~!Loving my Lyfe now .. !~
kk today i got mood to update pasal of some reasons ..
Ferstly im starting to be very busy with werk..
Luckily la aku ade this job so that i never think too much about him.
What i noe he changed his number aready.
Soo yah & i dont think he will give me his number.
What im talking sia ? mestilarr tak kasi .
Aku siapa sak.
I no longer in his friend list.
Hmm nah but nevermind la ... i okay with it pon.
Just hoping the best for him.
Hope he will be with her again or maybe with someone who truly love him.
As for me , i have my friends. Like chokichoki ...
Before i go on & on , i wanna say thanks to ZAI for temaning me smalam kay ?
Thanks for ''sending'' me bck home.
Sooo sweet of yOu !
Hahahahahaaa... jangan kembang horr ...
Hmmm seriously i noe its kinda random when i say i miss talking to you.
But the truth is i mean it.
You are such a nice friend la ChokiChoki !
Please dont be like chipsmore lagy ..
Kejap ader Kejap tarqde !
Sooo ZAI , i meet up with you soon aytes ?
I owe you one expensive Chocolate .
Hahaha .. Thanks fer everything !
As for you KENTUT , i kinda miss talking to you .
But its Okay .. ):
Hmm da laa enuff said.
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUACKS
ilaSigningOut
Labels: I may mean nothing to you but you mean EVERYTHING to me
.Sunday@10/31/2010 03:18:00 am.
~!After a long tyme !~
After a long long tyme, i finally enjoyed myself.
Thanks darls fer all those fun...
Aku igt lagik what happen.
Hahaha.. siak sia dhat guy.
Name dhea faqrii , he asked my num in the end i gave fel's number.
Standby kene maki uh tu anak dengan fel's tunang !
Hmm btw babes im sorry if i didnt share my probs to you earlier.
Im not gonna say anything pasal walaupon all this happen , aku tknk burokkan atau pon berbual pasal dhea.
Im hoping the best for hym.
Hope he gets who or what he wants.
i noe you guys wanna noe what actually happen.
Tapi sorry pasal aku tak ceritakan apape pasal i can only smile.
Eventhough im not contacting hym anymore, i will olways remember hym as the guy who changes my life.
So yahh i miss Kentut alot but im starting to learn to let go.
Soo yah but whatever it is , i had a WONDERFUL & BLAST saturday !
LuckyLucky never drink kalau tak da lain cerita da...
Hey my babes & dudes who accompany me tadi , thanks fer everything !
Aku sayang korang many2 !
& as fer you , i really hope you get what you want in lyfe ..
Study hard .. make parents proud .. chase her if you still love her .. & most importantly Jangan make trouble Outside !
Zai ChokiChoki , sorry didnt kol you up when im at cck earlier cos im afraid to interrupt your things.
Soo yah maybe on weekdays ill meet you aytes ?
Hmm kk la dhats all im tired after a loooong day out.
Take care !!
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUACKS
iLaSigningOut
Labels: ill stil wait fer you
.Friday@10/29/2010 01:35:00 am.
~!Moving On !~
I used to hate that we never talk to each other anymore.
Now , i dont mind we are not friends.
I just hate the fact that you are okay with it.
& i just hate the fact that i still cant let it go.
Many of them said ive changed.
You know what ? YES i have CHANGED.
Im not as nice as i used to be, because i dont want to get used or walked over.
I dont trust anyone and tell them my secrets because behind every
fake smile is a backstabbing BITCH!
I distance myself from people because in the end they
are only going to leave.
i have changed because ive realised that
IM THE ONLY PERSON I CAN DEPEND ON !
Seriously thanks to the people who give me werds of advice.
Thanks korang !
Appreciate it lots ...
& yah Zai CHOKICHOKI , i owe you a chocolate !
Soo see you soon..
To YOU , i never regret being your friend & i tak rugi apape pon.
Soo yah take care of yourself ..
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUACKS
iLaSigningOut~
.Thursday@10/28/2010 12:22:00 am.
~!Time to move On !~
Guess what ?
I found out something damn hurtful.
Im here crying my heart out yet he's there happily asking girls number.
Siak uh .
Sakit sia aty.
Memang la aku bukan sesiapa tapi fikir2 balik bodoh pe kau ila !
Im angry of myself uh.
Thanks people yang suro aku move on.
Aku rase you guys betulla.
Im like a statue la sia all this while.
Fine !!
You want it this way then here im proudly to say that YOU HAVE WHAT YOU WANT !
Im washing my hands off you !
Aku da tak nak tahu ape jadi atau apa la.
Kau pilih jalan hidup kau , aku pilih jalan hidup aku.
Im not gonna crack my brains anymore or think about that day lagi.
I seriously da tak nk masok campor hal kau !
Mungkin kengkawan baru kau atau pon ex ex kau semua comfirm will be there for you.
Im just wishing you all the best & yah stay happy olways.
One thing for sure, im WRONGED bout you.
i fell in love with you because of your HONESTY .
In the end i guess i was totally wrong about that.
Some werds that kluar dari mulut kau stakat nk sedapkan hati je.
Its all proven uh.
you always wanted to win.
At the end of the day i hereby pronounce dat YOU are the WINNER and ILA is the LOSER !
i stepped on your trap without realising it.
When things happen barulah i realised.
Thanks ey you .
I seriously dont Hate you but i HATE myself for falling inlove with YOU !
YOU are just too good with your werds till si bodoh nie dengar kata2 you.
stupid sia kau ila !
But one thing uh , aku suka cara2 kau !
Seriously thanks once again for everything.
Thanks kerana bila berkawan dengan you , ive learnt alot of lessons.
Not to fall inlove readily , Not to trust people steadily & most importantly Not to make someone your Priority
when you are just an option to them !!
Thanks you !
As i said whatever you do , you cant make me hate you.....but you make me hate myself !
So heres for you : im still here waiting but its gonna be diffrent.
One thing uh , remember semua orang ader perasaan bukan you sorang.
stay happy always ! study hard ! make parents proud ! most importantly jage kesihatan.
FRIENDSHIP is something you should TREASURE .
Its not some kind of rubbish where you can throw it around.
But on top of all this , i still cant get over you ! damn !
ILOVEYOU
IMISSYOU
MUACKS
.Monday@10/25/2010 12:44:00 am.
Honestly i dont know whats my feelings.
Should i be angry or sad ?
Seriously i really didnt expect what i saw .
I cant be angry pasal deep down i still love him.
& i still hope for his msg or call.
But all this while , ape yang aku rase semuanye betol.
It may hurt now but its better off this way.
Why must i terhegeh dengan orang yang dont need me anymore ?
Why must i cry ?
im just like a toy.
But remember this ... this toy do haf feelings.
Seriously bila i cant make time to meet you , i did try my best to let you noe dhat you
are loved by me.
You can say anyting but one thing for sure i did try.
Aku tahu aku tak sebagus , tak selawa & tak sepandai.
Tapi one thing aku tawu i did try to win & jage hati you.
Maybe i noe what you want in your life after a month i got to noe you.
I hope you can haf what you want , who you want & get what you want.
I wish you all the best for your life.
I do noe where i stand.
No worries there wont be SHAKILAH yang akan irritate you lagi.
Im sorry.
Your werds & all killsme.
Tapi macam mane pon thanks for tolerating & waiting all this time.
Appreciate it lots.
All the best in whatever you do.
Esp your school.
Remember to go school n masok kelas !!!
hmmm .. damn !
I miss you alot.
I miss everything about you.
ILOVEYOU
IMISSYOU
MUACKS !
Labels: ill stil wait fer you
.Sunday@10/24/2010 01:48:00 am.
Our friendship has just ended.
It hurts alot.
But this is his decision.
I wont & cant say much.
Ive thrown away the chances he's given me.
I really dont want to lose him.
Aku sayangkan dia.
But i noe nutink can change anyting.
I didnt have the chance to sms him.
i just cant reply because i dun wanna say GOODBYE !
But this is fer you.
Thanks for everything that you have done for me.
I will always remember the person who always make me smile.
I will always remember you kentut !
I will always remember all our late night talks .
i will remember our lame jokes.
& everything.
Thanks for making my life fill with laughter & joy.
I will always remember the guy who changes my world.
Thanks alot .
& i will miss you.
I just didnt expect my friendship will be over.
I noe no matter how hard i cry nothing gonna change.
Im really sorry if i add your probs.
Im sorry if i tambah stress you.
Im sorry for every single thing i did.
im definitely gonna miss our talks,jokes & everything.
But one thing im not worried cause i noe you haf Zai & ur family.
Trust me , i realy do love you alot.
& i noe my life without you will be diffrent.
Im sure you are okay cause with me around or not dont make any diffrent.
But no matter what , i will olways be here.
I told you i wont cry anymore but in the end i cant control myself.
Im sorry for everything.
& thanks for being a wonderful friend. (:
LOVE YOU
MISS YOU
MUACKS
ilaSigningOut~~~
.Friday@10/22/2010 05:09:00 am.
I love this quotes la sey.
Seriously fer the past few days , it sucks !
Dont dare to speak up cause im too afraid to lose you kentut .
But i must tell you this , i pon ader perasaan.
I understand your situation.
But yang i tak faham why towards me only?
I had enough of me putting fake smiles & laugh.
In the end im left crying alone without anyone noeing.
My greatest fear is when i fight with you.
Tapi kan please uh i HATE to be compared.
& for once can you stop saying you macam dhea , prangai dia pun tk cam you .
Let me tell you IT HURTS !
Please uh im happy that your close friend sekarang very close dengan i .
Please dont spoil all this please?
Trust me uh you , seriously your behaviour lately really kills me.
Soo pape please tell me.
Avoiding or watever wont solve anything.
Angry , sedih, happy semua MIXEDUP !
Ntah laa eyy .
** Before i forget Thanks zai fer teman-ing me & that msg
really make me smile. i will only say it once Awwwwww
so shweeeeett !
& to you Remember one thing uh im happy when you are olways there
for me. & one more thing i may look strong with my werds but deep down me
im very Fragile !
Seriously i HATE you But i LOVE you !
pandai2 la fikir ape maksud.
ILOVEYOU
IMISSYOU
MUACKS !
ilaSigningOut~~
Labels: if you cant handle me at my werst, you dont deserve me at my best.
.Tuesday@10/19/2010 03:41:00 am.
ARGHHH ! all i could think of is him...
what should i do ?
I feel like calling him up cause i miss him.
But im afraid that ill iritate him with my call & smses .
I noe i shouldnt be thinking negatively.
But try putting yourself in my shoes than you understand.
Im tired of crying & thinking bout this .
How i wish you would just give me a miss call.
I dont noe if this is a sign that you gonna go far away from me.
Seriously how i wish you could noe how i feel right now.
Seriously the more i blog , the more tears will flow .
So i guess ill stop here .
& hope everything gonna be okay.
Da laa i wanna hear songs & wait for his msg or call .
ILOVEYOU
IMISSYOU
MUACKS
ilaSigningOut~
Labels: im left all alone
.Monday@10/18/2010 11:51:00 pm.
~!Something wrong somewhere !~
Somehow after came across something , this stupid feelings dtg lagi.
I dun noe whats wrong .
But what i can see , you do look happy.
I wont say much , i will respect whatever you say.
Haiyah maybe something happen dhat makes u happy.
i can only say One thing , if u r happy den im happy too.
Trust me , im gonna haf this positive thinking .
I should not assume things but im happy cause you stated dhat you happy cause something happen.
Good fer you !
As fer me , im all alone again !
arrgghhh !!! stress !
Why im having this weird feelings again pon aku tarq tau laa?
Please tell me whats wrong.
I dun wanna haf this BIG question mark in my head anymore .
Didnt we agree that we should always speak up?
Im trying my best to understand your situation.
But you do noe dhat its a Must fer us to talk at nyte eventhough a few minutes.
But then again ,i cant force you cause i noe where i stand.
I noe i dun noe oll ur probs or whats going on with your life.
But didnt i tell u dhat im olways here fer you ?
Ive tried every ways to make you smile.
Even at my lamest joke or make a fool out of myself.
Cause to me, making u smile n happy is oll i want to see .
Because i did mention before that you are so important in my life.
Sedih sangat when everything changes.
But i love you even more because you manage to make me cry , smile , angry semua laa .
Thanks Kentut!
I honestly felt left out.
is it just my feelings or is it fer real ?
Why must i olways haf this feelings?
i noe you pon narq tyme alone but seriously its hard fer me to accept this changes.
im not gonna cry as ive promised you but baby i really hope that this feeling of mine will go away.
i miss our latenight calls , our laugh , our jokes & our tyme .
But no worries i wont irritate you.
im gonna wait for your msg or calls patiently.
Trust me , whatever happens im still holding to my werds to WAIT FOR YOU !
One thing you have to noe is that i miss you alot .
Hope everything will go smoothly soon.
Take care kentut !
ILOVEYOU
IMISSYOU
MUACKS
Labels: how long it takes, ill stil wait fer you
.Friday@10/15/2010 08:50:00 pm.
~!Arghh !~
Aku geram dengan diri aku.
why cant my feelings go away ?
Knape must i go upset him.
Aku really wanna meet him but this bloody feelings just dun wantto go away.
I was angry when i saw hym tweet.
Tapi kilah , u only got urself to blame !
Arghhhh ! i feel like crying sia.
If only he noe how i feel .
Aku maseh geramn i really dun want this to drag.
Tapi makin menambah sey.
I cant blame him.
I fail to accompany him.
Soo wats more ?
Aku mmg tarq layak la sak jadi kawan dia.
Sumpah sakit sia hati.
He say he wanna haf his rest yet but he actually nk kluar ?
Y sia you?
Im sorry if im not a gud fren to you.
Maaf sangat ..
Me & my bloody mouth !
Y cant i just let himnoe dhat perasaan geram tu maseh ader ?
Gaaah !!
Aku tarq tau uh ape aku nkuat sekarang.
I dun wanna do things dhat i tink im not ready to do it.
He try to understand me alot of tyme.
Maybe ive reached his tahap kesabaran aready.
One thing im upset cause u put the phone wen u r not happy.
Im sorry .
I wont force eu to understand my situation n feelings.
Cause u tried aready.
da laa im not in my best mood to update .
If u wanna talk to me , do kol me up.
ill be waiting .
ILoveYou !
iLaSigningOut ~
Labels: Thanksfertolerating
.Wednesday@10/13/2010 04:01:00 am.
Okay let me start.
As u can see above is a lyric.
Its my favourite song dedicated to a very special someone.
& i did smile wen i heard him trying hard to hafal dhat song.
hahaha.Cute bodoh kau !
Its quite kene la dengan wats happening now.
Hmm but watever it is im still lucky n happy to haf hym around.
Thanks b ! ooppsss salah thankss KENTUT !
Hmmm seriously thanks fer being there fer me just now.
Appreciate it lots.
Finally i haf someone to talk to.
Im sorry fer what happen on monday.
But i guess you should understand.
Hmmmm....
dONT worry laa its Faaaddddiiinnggg !
Hmm i just want to clear those feeling of mine completely.
Arrrgghhh !
Geram tapi sayang ...
Geram tapi nk jumpa ..
Geram tapi nk hug ...
Geram tapi nak semua uh !!
Haiyoh .. wat shud i do eyy ?
Kentut ! cepat laa help me throw nie feeling !
haiyahh ...
Hmm soon enuff ill myt hym everyday.
Tarq sabar la sey.
Hahaha..
Kla see u around.
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUACKS
ilaSigningOut~
Labels: my jealousy proves that im afraid to lose YOU
.Monday@10/11/2010 08:36:00 am.
~!Things Happen Unexpectedly !~
Arrrrghhh !!
Nie ape yang aku choose.
Y the hell m i crying sia ?
Susah tapi kene.
Im sorry uhq fer all that i haf done or say oll these while.
& im sorry too cause i didnt meet u.
Aku buat ni semua kerana aku tawu yang im not a strong gurl.
Aku cant xcept or understand eur situation.
Losing you was my greatest fear.
But i do believe im better off alone.
Sorry for every little thing i did.
Thanks fer bringing happiness & joy to my lyfe.
I really appreciate it lots.
Trust me , you never fail to make me smile.
Thanks fer giving me chances .
Thanks fer telling me the truth about how eu felt towards me.
Aku sayangkan kau tapi aku tak strong uh mann.
Aku mintak maaf.
This is the best way out fer everyone.
Trust me.
Aku very damn sure uh ..
Aku tawu kau marah.
Tapi please uh mann im totally hurt!
Dah lah let me be alone.
I really haf to say sorry to HAMKA !
Maaf tau kawan!
Seriously i really didnt mean to get u into trouble.
Kay i tink i shud relex my mind & find a suitable getaway.
Im doing this dengan hati yang sangat berat.
One thing uh my love fer you oll this while is real.
Kay laa take care !
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUACKS
iLaSigningOut~~~
Labels: Losing u was a heartache
.@10/11/2010 03:07:00 am.
~!Soo Excited !~
Today kinda happy cause laugh alot .
Luckily laa kan aku dapat tawu sebenarnyer.
Cos aku suke serbu tanpa helmet.
Thanks ehh KENTUT !
Trust me try putting urself in my shoes , den u noe wat i felt earlier.
Kk im counting down the hours .
Excited nie.
Im sure i haf lots n lots to update tomorrow.
Wheee tarq sabar la sey.
Goodbye SENGKANG !
hello CHOACHUKANG !
Gonna miss alooot of things .
Esp mama ,ayeen ,kak aja & TT .
Sedih siyoL .
But afterall , im gonna be muchmuch happier with my lovely frens around.
Kk la update again soon.
Maybe with pictures attach to it .
Hahaha !
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUACKS !
iLaSigningOut ~
Labels: Finally meeting you
.Saturday@10/09/2010 12:45:00 am.
~! Why am i feeling this way ? !~
Seriously aku tarq tahu what should i do.
Y sia m i feeling this way.
Haish.
Aku bace n its hurtful.
& its like no wonder laa.
Should i do whats best?
Im sOo fucking stressed up.
My confident level is olways high.
But sumpah what i saw really makes my confident dropped.
Aku tarq tahu laa.
Its just too hard uh.
Should i just forget about everything ?
Arrrggghhhhh !
What sia i should do ?
haizzz!
Ntah laa eyy aku sendiri cant think straight.
Ill update again later uh ..
Bye peeps !
TAKE CARE ..
iLaSigningOut~
Labels: Please show me what i should do.
.Friday@10/08/2010 06:34:00 am.
~! Hope for the best !~
Kaykay hello people .
Let me start pasal on the 7th of october 2010.
The phobia dhat i haf fer the past years return.
someone dat is really important in my lyfe now actually tinggi suara at me.
But i noe i only got myself to blame.
Setiap kali he say da la i tknk contact u lagy...perasaan takot timbol.
serious takot ter amat sangat.
Seriously i was shocked when he reacted dat way.
*anjat gegerl ! (: *
But after a while he cooled down n we haf a nice talk.
i really am sorry for what happened.
Seriously please dont be angry bby.
I noe that eu r just angry sampai oll those harsh werds kluar.
But trust me soon ill prove to you EVERYTHING !
one thing la bby just wait fer me.
i wont disappoint u anymore.
After those things happened , i felt scared but yet relieved.
wanna noe y ?
Simple its because atleast i noe sedikit sebanyak pasal diri dhea.
hmmmmm..
Happy la jugak kan .
Kay then on the 8th october..
He called me up .
i felt bad cause i didnt message hym when im awake.
its like wth !
I received some messages dat make me soo damn pissed off early in the morning.
Hmm tarqley terima uh somehow.
We dont talk alot in the day cause he went lepak n his battery da nk flat.
Soo when i received hys kol pukol 8plus , i was happy.
its like Finally !
But then i told hym to teman his fren go MacDonald.
Hmmm den bla bla bla ..
Bile kat rumah while he was playing his game , i talked to his youngest sister.
Cute giler la seyy .
I asked her to sing den she sing la seyy .
Serious shyt soo the cute la weyy .
just like her Brother , RAHMAN .
Hmm then haf a long & nice conversation with him.
He really shared alot with me.
Thanks fer telling me stuff that i shud noe.
Appreciate it lots.
Hmmmmm.
Sempat kita dua feeling2 testing2 something jap.
i looooiikkee ! jokingjoking !
kk la enuff about today.
Thanks baby fer making me smile today.
LOVE YOU
MISS YOU
MUACKS !
ila SigningOut ~
Labels: everything happens fer a reason.
.Wednesday@10/06/2010 03:38:00 am.
~!Revealed!~
Hello again people.
kk let me start with me myself & i.
Didnt do much things.
Waited to talk to hym tyme siang but he busy.
i understand.
At night macam biasa la kan i got a chance to talk to
hym till he went to sleep.
Started off quite moody.
But felt calm after heard hym sing.
Nie truth eyy bukan angkat eyy.
Den after a while , we confrence with hamka.
it startes with hys ''rancangan'' ..
Stupid n silly questions popped up.
Ingat tau creammane yang bagus.
For future use.
Haha.
Selepas hamka tarok thats where everything changes.
We played Moment of truth.
Aku ape lagy ,i asked things dhat i wanna ask.
Truth is im hurt over the overall answers.
Tried hard to hold back skali he tegur laa pulak.
Dhea ckp nk nangis, nangis je ..
i narq dengar.
Teruusss ape lagy pipe bocor la seyy .
serious uh quite upsetting but i have to understand.
Thanks fer being HONEST bby..
Oooopsss bby pulak.
tapi ape salahnyer kan.
dhea macam nie la ...
ANAK MATSALLEH BANYAK HOBBY ,
APA SALAHNYER I PANGGIL U BABY!
hahaha..
Kk la dun wanna panjang2 story later pipe bocor lagy.
Wanna sleep now cos later wanna teman hym messagemessage.
LOVEYOU
MISSYOU
MUUAAACCCKKSSS!
Ila signingOut
Labels: I may mean nothing to you but you mean EVERYTHING to me
Okay goodbye 2010 & hello 2011 .. 
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